Now Playing: Alluring Secret ～Black Vow～ (vocaloid)
Finally did some house cleaning, recovered my acct, and took down the blog entries/pages that were really bothering me (ex. blog entries from 10 years ago that were alternately depressing and said way too much about my state of mind at the time)
Kept copies of it all though, the warm reassurances were really important to me, then and now, and I'm glad you read and responded. They were troubling times, for me at the time, and even now in even darker times, I look back at it and really marvel at how.... self-centered I was? I guess it's a failing of youth.
I'd like to think I'm past all that, but some of those depressing feelings are still there, a part of me. I think I moved on a bit, and learned to accept it. To change what I can instead of fearing - and hating - those aspects of my life which I thought were set in stone.
Which, is going into the book I'm writing about. Always good to keep wierd emotional writing on hand for material. XD
I do have some regrets - like people I wish I'd kept in touch with, or treated better, or at the very least, told them I was sorry. I don't know if I can track you down or if you'd even want to hear from me but... for what it's worth, I'm sorry for the things that I've done, or didn't do, or didn't say.
I left the blog up in case anyone came looking. I don't know. Would someone come looking? Did YOU come looking? Drop me a note, or still hiding out on The Underground Shadow World. I'm sure you'll find your way. ^^